Emo speech

Since the last time knowing you, i have no idea who i am dealing with. It has always been like this. To like someone at first sight. It is proven useless to me now. I want to chance to befriend than be-girlfriend that kind of guy. I tried to make you happy, i try to talk to you, i try to go near you, but it seems my effort are just mere wind blowing over your hair. I did not regret going after you. I just do not understand. How can you treat me so "friend"ly knowing i love you . I just want to hear, A few words that actually admit you like me.

Alone

I know that I am not alone but i feel alone. This is a very great issue that I do not comprehend. I have a family, i have friends and yet i feel lonely. Y? I would like to have an answer. This blog is very good since no one is following it. (Happy) I kind of confessed to a girl, KIND OF. She is a girl i dream of, short hair (perfect) , pretty and strong. The problem is, she is 4 years younger than me. This is a really big problem because she would think that i am his brother. Bad start. However, she said she would accept if i said i like her. Would say its ok if i knocked her . In her opinion i am a funny guy but i am not! I really had to work on that one.

The biggest and the biggest problem is , i missed her. This is very bad. I might get a scholarship to Sabah. Auooo.. This means i will not be able to see her for like , 5 to 7 months!!! I am going to die . So i pray that i can do something about it. At least let her fall a little bit for me. At least a message, how have you been doing there. That would make me jump if she sms me. Honestly speaking, she is the one.

Dilemma

I had to make a choice. Tomorrow night i have promised myself to attend church service and now i am given an invitation to my friend's farewell party. She is going to Singapore and she won't be coming back much of the time, i guess. This make me very very sad and headache. Why should I have to go to her party so much? I have to put God first and I am now actually doubting my decision. I really pray for her safety and all. She is my good friend and I do not want to disappoint her at the very least!
May God give me strength and her as well. I pray to God that I can make it up to her. I write this and I pray that God will see this as well. I know God knew what I want , and i will pray more so that God would have mercy on me. Amen.

My best friend's birthday!

'2pm meet at the spring ah..' 'o, ok' Today is Simon's birthday. We meet at the Spring and that is basically the only place we meet for birthday gathering, class gathering , plkn's friend gathering and so on and so forth.
Thanks to him, i have the chance to meet Joy, Albert , Aaron , and Lin Li! It was like a great surprise because Albert invited me without saying who we are actually seeing , apart from the birthday boy.
I felt guilty because i was late. Explaining is covering ha? I went out at approximately 1.30 pm(Hei, i got A+ for math subject eh, sure use approximately to boast myself a bit) but due to cacat-driving, i have to follow my father to the bank and his office . That makes a very very.. VERY long journey before reaching The Spring.
What can i say, my friends are so generous and forgiving. They didn't ask anything about me being late. However, that makes me feel a lot more guilty.
It was one five hundred ( military ways of expressing 3pm, i went to PLKN) . We couldn't decide what to do in the Spring, even though we have only two options , watch a movie or sing karaoke .
It was a disaster! Birthday boy likes to sing, majority wins? Nah! Today is different, we still voted and out of 7 hands , 6 went for k-box! 1 go for anything besides k-box(me) .
We went in and sang for like 3 hours. I shouted my lungs out. Basically, we sing with our vocal and those skillful person, like Simon sings with their diaphragm (sounds professional ) . I did not know Joy was a very good singer and another surprise for the day! As always, i sing dreadfully ( correct?) . I sing for fun and i try to bring fun to them only. I am quite satisfied in the end. I was lost when i went to the toilet, not funny. K-box is a labyrinth for new-comers, and i am a newcomer. No shame in getting lost when going to the toilet!
1830. Joy and Lin Li went home. We went eating in KFC. Nothing new, just chicken.
The best part is! After we eat! We walk to Mars! Not the planet Mars where martian lives. Its a cyber cafe near REN JIAN CHA FANG! Anyway, we walk there from the Spring and we walked across the field of the fly-over! Can you imagine that? The FIELD! Its not some place people walked by everyday. I am not proud but felt excited to have this experience.
Upon reaching MARS!Met Kueh , Kho and Ong . When man comes together, nothing good will happen ( sweeping statement) . We went into Mars to play counter-strike, even though guns are dangerous but we still enjoy killing,kinda feel bad for the people in Libya where they have to actually carry a gun and kill for survival.
Then we play race car game. Kueh is very good at this game and he put water let me win. Bad. My honor is crushed!
Leaving Mars and there we have Mr.Ong . Poor him, the one who has mastered driving, force to be our driver. I am lucky to be cacat-driving for the time being. Aaron went home 1st, his father picked him up. Then we went to tou yuan in Jalan Song. Drinking and chatting for a moment, then our goodbyes. Mr.Ong sent us home one by one.
Simon told me something and i like to share with everyone, 'i don't celebrate my birthday' Surprise but not so surprised . I don't myself but my friends made them for me because me and Simon we both have a common thing, we have good friends.
May the Lord guide us all. Share our wealth among ourselves and do not keep a treasure only for your own self because we cannot bring the treasure to heaven. It belong to this world and we don't because we are chosen by Jesus , our God for he was raised to death and is the King of all kings, forever and ever , Amen.

the End of SPM

Having trouble sleeping ? Afraid of SPM? Yes. That is what i have gone through. Now it is all over and i encourage all my friends. Especially those who are 2011 SPM candidates. Please control yourself by not watching tv more than an hour per day as well as playing computer games.
Why would i say so? I have read newspaper articles on Alpha waves and Beta waves. I will give a very brief intro on these waves because they affect your study.
In form 5 we learn alpha and beta radiation. This is different. In our brain, we emit alpha , beta , gamma and delta waves. When we are watching tv, our brain emits alpha waves, the same waves as we are sleeping or dreaming. As we study or read, our brain will convert to beta waves again. Normally, our brain emits beta waves when we are conscious and alpha waves when we are dreaming or sleeping.
My advice is , don't watch too much tv and play too much video games as it will decrease your IQ and make you think slower, then you will have trouble solving additional math questions(joking).
I myself is good at memorizing , not that good but better than doing literature. I spent 2 month to improve my History subject, from C+ to an A+. Thank God for that. Work hard and you will bare fruit. Watching TV and playing computer games are merely dreaming in another world where you have only 24 hour per day in this world to work. Do not waste your time my Brothers and Sisters!
Although wasting time is bad , you must plan your time effectively in order to have enough sleep as well. Do not open midnight oil because you regret that you didn't study these whole time and tomorrow is the big day. May God bless all of you.